The sun shines on a new day and I am optimistic that things are looking up. Hubby is working at the construction job. I have an extra trip this afternoon. Mrs H is doing better, while she now in the Nursing home she still wants us "girls" to work for her. She needs help eating and dressing, and she wants her own help, "the service at this place is awful!". I am most happy that she is OK, and that I still have a job. Sound selfish, but I am a realist and sometime too honest with my thoughts. Otherwise I am good for today, and that's all that matters.
Mark and I went to the therapist last night. S is someone I know from my past life as an Early Childhood teacher, she was my director. As I recall she knows me from the days I did not have my act together. Of course she was young and going through a lot too. Now she's one of the most excellent therapists I know. Very caring. Dale has agreed to see her too. Since it's a family case my insurance is paying for it. Things are better with him too. Actually, Dale is out right now completing an interview for a job at Target. He's pleased with himself, which is fine, but he still is earning my trust. S has a game plan for Dale and I am just relieved that I don't have to be the one to orchestrate this process, I am burned out emotionally right now. I'll do the work, but I don't want to create this therapy plan...besides I am not certified ;)
This treatment will actually count toward his court ordered counseling so it is all a positive thing. A lot of the suggestions S had were my idea too, but Mark balked a lot of them ... she agrees with me on my thoughts, except kicking him out...that's not an option. Which I knew deep down inside, I just get overwhelmed and considered it at times. There were days I'd come home from work and want to scream...like someone had invaded my house and I had no control over my life, except to work and work and work. But it's getting better.
I am getting to like this new blog site as I lost my entry while trying to figure out how to load pictures and while I was doing my entry it was automatically saved! So when I lost it, I easily found it! how cool is that????
I knew it was time for an aol divorce!!