Wednesday, November 25, 2009

thoughts and thank you!

Sorry, my thoughts are random today...

Did anybody here save their old AOL journals? I saved both of mine, the old bus journal and my original. Yesterday I was talking to a lady that I've known since I started driving a school bus, actually she tested me to get my CDL and gave me the ability to drive a big bus. She is one of the many who like to talk to me...I know plenty of people who when alone in a school bus treat me like a priest in a such girl told me on Tuesday all about her abusive ex boyfriend & how she got away from him...but shhhhhhh Rose don't tell anyone, ok?, oh and ignore the camera on the bus. :)

Any who, this lady is nearing retirement age and she has some issues that never seem to go away or get better, she talks about the same stuff she talked about 7 years other words nothing changes, same day same progress and she's literally killing herself from this...this is when I like to look at my own life...pull out the old journals and look or go to my closet and gather the really old hand written notebooks filled with words of the me spinning my wheels in my life ... but was I?

Here I am looking back at my life realizing that my circumstances are basically the, ex's, grand kids, little parental support, job loss, job gain, bill juggling, crazy life...all the same, but ME, Rose is not,

Rose is basically staying calm, loving life, picking up the pieces, moving forward, taking care of business, looking at the bright side, listening, aiding and touching every person I come in contact each and everyday...

and at the end of the day realizing that I am the one who will change ... even if this crazy world does not!

AND I am the one who is blessed beyond words as I am the one who is touched, aided, loved, listened to and the Luckiest GIRL on this EARTH!



Martha (Menagerie) said...

Excellent entry Rose! Hope you and your family have a wonderful Thanksgiving!
PS - yes, I saved all my AOL journals too :-)

Melissa said...

Rose, what a wonderful post. And you know, when I think about it, I am like you. Circumstances are pretty much the same, but I am not the same. Thankfully! I am a firm believer that we are on a journey in this life to learn whatever lessons we came here to learn. And the fact that we are NOT the same, means we must be learning something. That's my story and I'm stickin' to it!!!

Happy Thanksgiving my friend!

That corgi :) said...

I didn't save any of my journals and there was some good stuff in them too! good for you for keeping yours Rose and seeing your growth in them as you go back and read them and realize you are in charge of changing yourself, maybe not the circumstances of your life but your attitude towards them

I keep a prayer/devotional type of journal and I remember going through some tough times; I went back and read what I had written a year before and it was almost exactly the same as I was still dealing with. It was one of those "ouch" moments when I realized it was time to let go and trust God more so journals are importants part in our lives

Happy Thanksgiving